I don’t think I’ve ever had a mental breakdown. But almost everyone around me has, or always gets depressed. They then tend to look at me all weird saying I show no sign of that kind of emotion because I’m always “happy happy” and so I come out as the strange one for not being that way, or they think I’m “hiding it“. I Don’t really see why they get depressed, I’m living in the same environment or going through the same situation in some form as they are, but you don’t see me crying it out or having temper tantrums. Then when they do have their tantrums I seem to be in the cross fire and get attacked, and when i attack back, they get all pissy at me, as if its my fault!? That the words i say gets them even more depressed, hurts them “emotionally”. (yes i know I’ve been known to not attack physically but more verbally, & with a smile, which been said is even crueler, but that side of me rarely comes out unless I’m really PO). Well then don’t attack me you know? O_o As if you don’t say words to me too, you don’t see me complaining or depressing and blah blah. Get a grip in on your emotions. Maybe I’m just more mentally strong when it comes to such things?? I don’t know but it gets me pissed when i get attack in such a manner u_u Even more worse, when they ask me “what I feel towards a certain situation” @ first i wish not to share, but they insist and insist i tell them, and when I do, they go ahead and get pissed @ what i say!? Then later come back saying i don’t share my feelings with what going on or put my input, I don’t because its not like you care really, you just end up getting mad and then it turns into an argument. Sometimes i think people just want me to take pity in them, which im sorry its not gonna happen D: am I cruel? I don’t know, ugh….. Anyways lets move on shall we?

Lets see well I change a few things around my blog :3 and got small plug-ins which aren’t that important/noticeable, but i liked them xD, like the calender the way in functions now, and the way a tooltip is displayed :D harhar. rofl, everyone my little side joy in music i think is that i like 50cent’s music, well at least some if it >.>’ strange? lol

Oh I finished reading the novel for phury for The blackdagger brotherhood, It was awesome, I loved it @_@!! If i go into detail I’ll never stop writing lol, lets just say it is recommended to read :3~ Tomorrow is the monte negro signing/performance @ Borders. I’m not sure if im gonna make it D8! But i hope i do ;0; I did a Fanlisiting for them yay i got it haha *.*”’ OH!! Last but not Least Can you guys go VOTE FOR ME *puppy eyes* for the hikaruhoshi wallpaper contest? Its to win a domain =D which really if i win im gonna use it to renew my fanlisting domain x3!!~ Okie that is all for today baiiiiiiiiiiissssssssss =D

So anyways i feel like i haven’t written here in a long time O_o but right now i have 2 different emotions in me, one is happy/annoyed{i think}, for 2 reasons the first because I’m reading this novel yakeato gave me & I’m all into it XD so far im in book #3 of the series, The series is entitled “The black dagger brotherhood” its really good i recommend it all :3 ITS A MUST READ 2nd reason because i won a domain :3 and i think im gonna use it as a fanlisting  wtf my mom just walked by sniffing the air XD, okay that got me off topic @_@  any who Im happy i won, sure mine wasn’t the best, actually i second thought the design and believe me it wasn’t my best work what i entered :0 and i was shocked when i did win but i didn’t cheat in any way my coding and design did it so it gave me confidence :] Mainly i think i won because my coding and design flowed together good with no complication, but anywho im kinda annoyed because of something someone said about it but i wont get into that -bits tung- ;D mmk mmmk bahaha southpark 8D mmmk moving on O_O  Im weird O_O biotchessssssssss!!! #.# so i guess mainly happy now XD~ Oi!  3 and 1/2 days till me birthday 80! Im not sure what im gonna do i think yakeato is planning something with my friends =.= but yes excitement :woot:  but now i feel ..old ..-gets walker- i is an old lady D;

oh and yes here is my hair gah i look so awful in that picture!!! i couldn’t get a good one ._.’ and u can barely see my hair style really X’D -dies-  but its short and long in front with alot of layers and sorta wavy up in the back  XD can u see my zit >_> LMAO!! YAKEATO CUT IT she is good at cutting hair :0 i forgot who in the cure magazine she used as a reference to cut/style my hair that way but yea i like it :] my hair is a bitch to get straight ~.~ but im planning to buy this one straightener three of my friends say its really good and i might get it but it cost 100$ like damn @_@  Well that is all i have to say on today =] later~