NO WHERE THAT’S WHERE!! At least at the way things are going at the moment T3T” So I’m not in school this fall, why cause of money problems, I was all excited to head back but then before i knew it the plans changed. Nobody wants to give me a job which = to no cash, the house rent just went up which means more struggle on our backs. Its just me and my mom now, my sis moved out and she said she help us, which was dumb cause she can barely pay her rent where she lives now. A family friend is trying to get me work at this company he works at so hopefully that goes through and i start working soon, so I can at least hope to go back to school next fall[even though my chances of getting my degree just got longer] and help out with the bills. My mom says to take out a loan so i can be in school but idk that’s like just adding more dept on our asses ya know :|, my sis has not even paid back her school loan from 2 years ago, so i don’t feel the need to add on to it. I dont really qualify for some or most scholarships i think and my FASFA has been withheld until i raise my G.P.A by like 2 or something points cause i got a low grade in my math class last time T_T, so how the hell can i raise it if I’m not even in school DX. Days like these really makes me think how the hell my dad manage to pay everything D: He really worked his butt of everyday , makes me miss him even more ._.[R.I.P]~~

Okay Enough of my gloomy mood
Oh lol one last sorta bleh thing xD I’m not going to the diru concert DX again no monies lol but i might be able to go see suicide ali in Nov 7th i think, cause I’m getting some small orders to do layouts for a small fee at this site so hopefully i can get enough for that lol Gosh okay what has been going on with me O_O….. Um … Oh well my sleeping pattern has been wayyy off, I lasted 2 days with only like 3 hours of sleep together and i sorta been falling asleep easier now but not really like at 4am >_> then i wake up at 7 something am so that’s like 4 hours a day of sleep o.0, that can’t be good for the body or mind I applied for that payperpost thingie, so i can maybe make cash that way o.0 but I very much doubt i get accepted, because i don’t think I qualify, but whatever I’m still waiting for it to go through xD. As you can see the sidebar is to the right now and i removed some things lol i had the urge to rearrange stuff X_x.

You know what i want to eat so badly XD!!? Jajangmyeon!![Bean Paste Noodles] I always see them eating it in Korean shows and god it looks so good that i just wanna lick the screen rofl. I would try to make it my self but i would rather first know how its suppose to really taste in case i make it wrong , which most likely i would xD. However I haven’t found any places that’s sell it around here D:. I have to take myself down to Korea town sometime soon so i can try it =o=’ or maybe search online for the best place they make it at. Doesn’t it just look so delicious haha. Okay my tummy is growling now, I’m off to find myself some fooooooooooooooood :3

woah who watched the Olympics? xD I sure did, but like the replays in the middle of the night haha. The opening and the closing were awesome @__@ I kinda hated Michael phelps cause he was getting way to much attention, it was annoying u__u But any who over all it was fun to watch the events i was able to catch on nbc4 :] Now to life career stuff O_O…I’m planning to change my major =o= cause I know I can be a great business person and run my own place, but the classes that i have to take for it, i just don’t think I’m gonna make it through them x_x” Its mainly the math subject classes that i struggle in, even with excess studying and tutoring i can’t get it to stick in my head, & you have to take like 937482 math classes -dies-. So I plan to change it [maybe] to my other great passion that i love studying, which is history! maybe i will study mythology and religion and transfer to Loyola university? o.0 I know a professor who teaches there so hey woot haha but i think he teaches law there since he is a lawyer haha. I told my mom but I don’t think she wants me to change majors, but we will see what happens I still need to do more research on the major, and what kind of jobs i can get, and the jobs are very limited -_-’ and they aren’t that great, but i probably could settle with being a mythology professor at a university, and no i wont teach high school or lower, i need serious people to teach x_x or a Archaeologists <333 & I would love to travel and make documentaries of such things and stuff. I have to ponder this decision very carefully.

Oh and my sister moved out, with her stupid boyfriend, bitch ;] lmao and I’m hoping to go to the diru concert with her, but of course he is coming to, but i told him not to try to talk to me alot cause he knows i don’t like him[more like hate him] and that ain’t changing anytime soon ;] anyways blah blah that stupid shit, i don’t feel like wasting anymore space on that haha. But yay diru coming back wootness. Oh and every since she moved out for some reason my friends been coming over in the late hours[12am-2am] more, so I just been driving around in their car or sitting and chatting with them lol, its fun :3 Oh in that pic, Karen is to the left driving and stef is in the right [u barely see her head lol] in the passenger seat and I’m in my comfortable spot in the back taking the picture ;] lol We are in her moms car cause hers broke done rofl Oh & I took a driving lesson from my uncle a few days ago, and almost hit our garage bahaha, i suck at the break part >_>’ So I have to go clean my room O_O cause my friend invited herself to sleep over my house tomorrow, or today O_o since its past midnight e__e But we gonna have fun haha and she is bring her play station, SHE IS GOING DOWN MUAHAHA, and puppy!! which might become mine if my mom lets me keep the puppy ._.’ Both of my friends wanna give me a puppy, Karen wanted to give me a chihuahua pup, and Stef wants to give me the one she bringing over. eek but its up to my mom ;0;. Alright time to cleaning and visiting ya’lls blogs C___C