I don’t think I’ve ever had a mental breakdown. But almost everyone around me has, or always gets depressed. They then tend to look at me all weird saying I show no sign of that kind of emotion because I’m always “happy happy” and so I come out as the strange one for not being that way, or they think I’m “hiding it“. I Don’t really see why they get depressed, I’m living in the same environment or going through the same situation in some form as they are, but you don’t see me crying it out or having temper tantrums. Then when they do have their tantrums I seem to be in the cross fire and get attacked, and when i attack back, they get all pissy at me, as if its my fault!? That the words i say gets them even more depressed, hurts them “emotionally”. (yes i know I’ve been known to not attack physically but more verbally, & with a smile, which been said is even crueler, but that side of me rarely comes out unless I’m really PO). Well then don’t attack me you know? O_o As if you don’t say words to me too, you don’t see me complaining or depressing and blah blah. Get a grip in on your emotions. Maybe I’m just more mentally strong when it comes to such things?? I don’t know but it gets me pissed when i get attack in such a manner u_u Even more worse, when they ask me “what I feel towards a certain situation” @ first i wish not to share, but they insist and insist i tell them, and when I do, they go ahead and get pissed @ what i say!? Then later come back saying i don’t share my feelings with what going on or put my input, I don’t because its not like you care really, you just end up getting mad and then it turns into an argument. Sometimes i think people just want me to take pity in them, which im sorry its not gonna happen D: am I cruel? I don’t know, ugh….. Anyways lets move on shall we?

Lets see well I change a few things around my blog :3 and got small plug-ins which aren’t that important/noticeable, but i liked them xD, like the calender the way in functions now, and the way a tooltip is displayed :D harhar. rofl, everyone my little side joy in music i think is that i like 50cent’s music, well at least some if it >.>’ strange? lol

Oh I finished reading the novel for phury for The blackdagger brotherhood, It was awesome, I loved it @_@!! If i go into detail I’ll never stop writing lol, lets just say it is recommended to read :3~ Tomorrow is the monte negro signing/performance @ Borders. I’m not sure if im gonna make it D8! But i hope i do ;0; I did a Fanlisiting for them yay i got it haha *.*”’ OH!! Last but not Least Can you guys go VOTE FOR ME *puppy eyes* for the hikaruhoshi wallpaper contest? Its to win a domain =D which really if i win im gonna use it to renew my fanlisting domain x3!!~ Okie that is all for today baiiiiiiiiiiissssssssss =D

I mades a new layout O.O, its dark colors, and I don’t really like it D: I generally would have gone with white but i thought i go with something new, but I some how find it crowded or something? Like do you guys think I should change anything to fix that problem or is it just me X’o. Also my fav. smilies cant see against this dark background u_u so i have to find me new ones soon xD or just type them out haha. Oh and the layout features the good band Villain!!~ Wee I’m watching the drama 3 Dads and a mom & Shin Sung Rok is so cute n.n Also earlier today I watched “So you think you can dance & I can’t believe this but i find Twitch fairly attractive >.>; mainly cause of his personality, lol he seems so happy, fun person to be around xD then he does have a nice bod lmao. When i told onee this she was all like “wtf O_o you like him! your weird” she said this well cause his black & I have always said that I don’t really see myself dating a black person , that ethnicity has always been on my last list to date ppl x’D but for twitch I’d make an exemption. rofl, Gah now I have a headache T.T; ahh okay and this tag thingie i forgot to do , so I’ll do it now O.O

Answers:
1. I Suck at math. Badly!
2. I have lived in the same house since birth.
3. I’ve never gone outside California
4. Every time I see a hot Asian I smile uncontrollably X’D
5. I’m very competitive
6. I get mad one sec like very angry but then I’m happy with you the next
second xD
7. I Burned my bed one time, by accident I swear >.>
8. I hate feet, cant stand the site of them X’D
9. I like the whole idea of the supernatural lol
10. Lately I’ve been into the study of Greece/Rome and its gods rofl

[Edit] Oopsie i forgot to tag ppl lol okay i Tag::
Annakim, Lani, annie, Jessica, Ryuna, Michelle, Saya, Llyngee, Mishisan, jayme.